Day Seven - Tougher Than I Remember

I am doing quite well on the diet and running. Every day this week I've been at 1,600 calories or less and have run 2.5 miles each day. However...

For the last two days, it has been tough to keep on the diet part. I don't know why, but I've had the urge to eat and eat and eat. I have been able to control that, so far, but this afternoon was tougher than I remember from last time I did this diet. On the ride home today from work, every billboard with food advertisements was tempting. At different times during the drive, I promised myself McDonalds Cafe, Subways Five for Five, King's and a quick sandwich at Sheetz. I somehow made it home without stopping at any of these places, but it was tough.

So far I've been strong, but it is becoming more difficult. I think I don't have the health fear I had 3 years ago. The reason I first started doing this 1,600 calorie diet in March 2006, my doctor had jsut scared the shit out of me in regards to my blood work, cholesterol and all. But since then, I didn't die, either from the cholesterol or the car accident. So I think I don't have as much fear as I did a few years ago.

I am still holding out, but I want gorge myself. I won't, out of fear of not losing the 40 pounds, but I want to. I can't stop myself from thinking about more and more food.

I just need to keep running and writing down everything I eat. That is how I will defeat these urges.